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Trust the Struggle

trust the struggle..
sometimes I think when you are going thru a struggle you feel like it is impossible to get over things. You force yourself to justify each moment and thought in hopes that it makes the whole process easier. You pick apart conversations and actions. There are those obstacles that sit in your way to trust again, to be happy, to love again. to want to dream, to just exist. i think we might have it all wrong. what if the key to get over things is to just simply get through them. To get on the other side of them. to know and trust that there is an opposite side to your struggle. it is visible at all times even if it doesn’t seem like it and it is clouded by the images of the problems existing right in front of you. It is there the opposite side where the struggles whatever it may be is smaller, less boldly existing. Trust the struggle, trust that at some point you will get through it, I cant promise that you will understand but you will get on that other side. Learn to let go, learn to forgive, learn to trust in order for you to get on the other side of what is blocking you from seeing the smaller struggle from your rearview mirror instead of the through the front windshield,,,

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Bravery thru words…

So I’m driving home from work today and the Sara Bareilles song “Brave” comes on the radio. I have heard the song several times and didn’t think much about it till tonight. I turned it up as loud as I could before I thought my speakers would blow (you are welcome Dad) and just lost myself in the words. Which ironically is what this piece is about. Words… words are said everyday without knowing sometimes how they are going to come out of our lips, how they will affect someone, or how we are able to formulate the sentence in our brain and heart.

This is a verse from her song
“You can be amazing
You can turn a phrase into a weapon or a drug
You can be the outcast
Or be the backlash of somebody’s lack of love
Or you can start speaking up
Nothing’s gonna hurt you the way words do
And they settle ‘neath you skin
Kept on the inside and no sunlight
Sometimes a shadow wins
But I wonder what would happen if you…

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave”

Is there a correlation between how brave someone is and what they actually will speak about? What would you say if you had absolutely no restraint, repercussions yes but every choice of words had absolute meaning? I don’t know if I am brave enough to actually speak the words that I think half of the time… not so much out of fear that they will harm someone but out of fear that I won’t be understood the way I feel…. I know we have all experienced a time when we are sitting in front to or next to a stranger, family member, enemy, or lover and have held our tongue because of the fear of not knowing how we will be perceived. Can we freely formulate exactly what we want to say to be understood from our heart and mind…The words we speak should be indications of what we feel on the inside the fear, the love, the strength, the bravery.

“And since your history of silence
Wont do you any good
Did you think it would?
Let your words be anything but empty
Why don’t you tell them the truth?”

So here is my thought and challenge to my you …..
“say what you wanna say,
and let the words fall out,
honestly I just wanna see you be brave”

Thank you Sara Bareilles for this song and the lyrics!!! Love it!!!!!

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Why I write…Day 4

So I was at target to by shampoo and conditioner well I got a bit distracted at all the notebooks and pens! Yes I said pens.. As you can see by my blog title I love pens.. I even have on my bucket list to find the most perfect pen.. I already found my most fav blanket and that is my North Carolina Tarheels blanket!! love it!!

Anyways moving on.. I found this notebook and thought this is perfect!!!!!! So her is a photo of it! It’s so simple yet for me as a wanna be writer it speaks volume! Kinda makes you think too.. So Enjoy..Think.. WRITE!!!!!


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Thank you doesn’t describe…Day 3

You might be seeing a trend going here with me including “days ” with the titles of my postings well I am really going to try and post a lil something everyday. It might be pictures.. .quotes… stories… weather… I mean really you get the point!!! So if you have a topic or thought you wish me to expand on or answer let me know and I would be honored to include it!!!

Now onto today’s post… As we start this brand new year I was thinking how grateful and thankful I am for every individual I have in my life right now… I have been thinking a lot lately about the contributions and support each person has on me, my spirit, my thoughts and my heart. It’s a good feeling to know that a friend is only a phone call or text away from me!! And in the same way I am just a phone call or text away from being there for you!! So with this new year rely on those people in your life that matter to you!!!! Be honest, be helpful, be kind, be supportive and most of all be fun!!!!!

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Same dream different night…Post 31

So yesterdays topic started for the post-a-day challenge was… “describing a dream that you have had more than once!” So I got to thinking and I know of a dream that I have had more than once.. In fact I have had the same dream three times and then variations of the dream at least two other times… Kinda crazy right!?!? I do have to say that this dream brought out so many emotions for me and so many questions but after some thought I kinda know where the dream most likely stemmed from. I probably have seen the movie Inception WAY to many times to re-diagnose my dream but come on now its Hollywood so lets be for real!! J So for the dream…
I had this baby, in all of the dreams I didn’t ever give birth to this baby so I assume that I adopted or was given the baby. The child was around 1 maybe but still so small and cuddly like babies are!! Well after a little while into the dream the baby gets taken away from me. Not because I was a bad mother but for some reason the baby goes away. I know exactly what the baby was wearing the day he got taken away. He was wearing these dark denim baby jeans, a white onesey, and this red hooded jacket with a white stripe down the arms and a zip up front. Its crazy because I remember this dream like it was yesterday and after having it three times I should remember it! Haha
My interpretation of this dream is this…
I had most of these dreams when my hips were at their worst. Like terribly bad. I was very stressed out. And when I had surgeries back in high school the doctors would always tell me that they never knew what the long term effects on my “child bearing hips” would be. I since then have had 9 more surgeries on my wonderful hips…So that thought is always in the back of my brain. I don’t know how the future will be for me but I know that I cant predict it or worry about what will happen…

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Yummy Chocolate

One of my favs!!!

One of my favs!!!

So since I spend a lot of my time searching for things on the Internet or watching movies, or the ever so popular reading gossip magazines. Not the national inquirer or star but rather OK! or in style, or I even read Southern Savvy the other day. I guess its a magazine about Southern Woman and their involvement in political and charity type things. It was really interesting and fun to read about local things and things that actually help people out, but the most amazing thing happened when I was reading the last few pages of this magazine…. I saw an advertisement for this company that has a “Chocolate of the Month Club” WOW how amazing would that be!!! who needs to go to the store, you have a box of truffles coming over month, never mind that the most expensive 12 truffle box for a 13 month membership costs &522.00!!! Yes you read that correctly, five hundred and twenty-two dollars!!! OMG that chocolate better have bits of gold in it right!? haha So I got curious to what other things, that would actually be in my budget, does this website have to offer. and OMG there is such wonderful sounding chocolates, covered nuts, or candy pieces that would probably be fit for a Princess!!! I think I might add this to my bucket list of subscribing to this “Club” for a year!!! Oh I can wish cant I!?!? Sure I can! They even have this Chocolate that is a slab of hickory smoked bacon that is covered in milk chocolate… As everyone probably knows I am slightly obsessed with bacon, I love it, well can you imagine bacon covered in chocolate? I am trying to decide how that would taste.. good thing for me to dream about I guess, and maybe someday I will buy some!! Ooooohh then I could consider it breakfast since its bacon! hahhahah I can rationalize anything!!!!

So this website and I do challange you to go check it out and dream about all the wonderful things that you could buy! I seriously probably could eat anything from that site. I really think those tortilla chips that are covered in chocolate could be quite fantastic as well!!! So here it is… http://www.vosgeschocolate.com/ 

So go check it out!!!! And you can thank me for the extra 5 pounds we all can gain by just looking thru the wonderful pages and pages of chocolates!!!! Oh and the website is purple and the gift boxes are purple and my favorite color is What!?!?! PURPLE!!!! its a sign I think, makes it even more perfect for me!!!

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