Monthly Archives: December 2013

Trust the Struggle

trust the struggle..
sometimes I think when you are going thru a struggle you feel like it is impossible to get over things. You force yourself to justify each moment and thought in hopes that it makes the whole process easier. You pick apart conversations and actions. There are those obstacles that sit in your way to trust again, to be happy, to love again. to want to dream, to just exist. i think we might have it all wrong. what if the key to get over things is to just simply get through them. To get on the other side of them. to know and trust that there is an opposite side to your struggle. it is visible at all times even if it doesn’t seem like it and it is clouded by the images of the problems existing right in front of you. It is there the opposite side where the struggles whatever it may be is smaller, less boldly existing. Trust the struggle, trust that at some point you will get through it, I cant promise that you will understand but you will get on that other side. Learn to let go, learn to forgive, learn to trust in order for you to get on the other side of what is blocking you from seeing the smaller struggle from your rearview mirror instead of the through the front windshield,,,

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I was thinking about you…

So they say that where your mind wanders is where you are supposed to be… or maybe it’s those who wander into your mind are who is supposed to be in your life… or wait better yet if you want to see where your heart is see where your mind wanders …

Regardless those thoughts have me perplexed today because my mind wanders a lot… about a lot of different people from different times in my life… sometimes it stays on one person for a long time and then when those people are active in my life it usually lingers in and out until I see them again. If I haven’t had any contact with that person in awhile that’s when they always seem to stay on my mind for an indeterminable amount of time. It’s not good, bad, insignificant, significant, optimistic, pessimistic thoughts… it’s just there lingering in the deep folds of my brain… mind… and usually my soul.

From the movie Middle of Nowhere
“I was thinking about you…
was it good or bad…
it wasn’t either it was just you,
I was thinking of you.”

I often feel that way. Wanting to tell someone I was thinking of them but not thinking anything in particular. But then there natural response would be was it good or bad… and I would be compelled to give them an answer based on their suggestion but I would have to go with my truth and say.. it wasn’t either it was just me thinking of you…

The thing is… we become human by the thoughts and emotions that we feel, explore, and know. If we don’t actually do those exact things then we may never have a thought worth having about a person.

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